Throwback Thursday involves me picking a book I’ve previously read to talk about, today I’m going to discuss Sinner by Maggie Stiefvater. You can find my original review here.
Cole St. Clair has come to California for one reason: to get Isabel Culpeper back. She fled from his damaged, drained life, and damaged and drained it even more. He doesn’t just want her. He needs her.
Isabel is trying to build herself a life in Los Angeles. It’s not really working. She can play the game as well as all the other fakes. But what’s the point? What is there to win?
Cole and Isabel share a past that never seemed to have a future. They have the power to love each other and the power to tear each other apart. The only thing for certain is that they cannot let go
I know that people have issues with Maggie Stiefvater & some of her writing, issues that I 100% agree with & understand, but that doesn’t change the fact that her book Sinner was the first book that I felt my mental health was well represented in. I have since read books that I relate to, for example last week’s throwback Thursday book Shadows on the Moon, but none have done the job quite in the same way that Sinner has.
It took me ages to get my hands on a copy of the book & when I did, I read it in one sitting; when I finished the book I felt numb & I really struggled to put a review together. I’ve since listened to the audiobook of Sinner multiple times & every single time the book makes me feel incredibly emotional, but also less alone. When I’m really struggling with my mental health or insecurities about my relationship I turn to this book. I see myself in both of the main characters, Isabel & Cole, & when I listen to their ‘voices‘ speaking the things I feel & think, it makes me feel much better.
Sinner, for anyone who doesn’t know, is sort of part of the Wolves of Mercy Falls book series, but only includes two of the main characters from the series. It occurs after the final Mercy Falls book & tells the tale of Cole going to California to find Isabel so they can fix their relationship – but it isn’t a fluffy love story. Isabel & Cole both have their issues, Isabel has huge insecurities & is recovering from her brother’s death; Cole used to be in a pretty famous band but disappeared from the public eye to fall into an awful drug addiction. Both characters suffer emotionally & I can relate to both of them; I understand Isabel’s insecurities about her relationship with Cole & I understand Cole’s depression.
I never get bored of this book; it means a lot to me & it’s really helped me understand myself & feel better about my mental health. The representation for mental health & drug addiction is so strong in this book, in my opinion, even if it lacks some other diversity. I really don’t want anyone to hate on me for promoting this book – I understand issues with the author but that doesn’t change the fact that for me, this book has been incredibly beneficial. Maggie’s writing is part of the reason I got into reading in the first place, & because of that I’ll never be able to hate her (but yes I do disagree with her some of her actions).